That's right, Dude

4:29PM

i wish it was a sunny/cold october like last year....ahh i loved that.

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7:20PM - american history x

i always forget how powerful that movie is until i watch it again. its been soo long. the end gets me everytime. well whatever i will just leave u all this....

"We are not enemies but friends.We must not be enemies. Though passion may have strained, it must not break, our bonds of affection. The mystic chords of memory, stretching from every battle-field and patriot grave to every living heart and hearthstone all over this broad land, will yet swell the chorus of the Union when again touched, as surely they will be, by the better angels of our nature.

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10:19PM

whats better than an update on a saturday night?

i really dont have anything interesting to say, but whatever.

it seems i can only sleep if i'm high anymore, which is really shitty.

I think i want to dye my hair black again but then i change my mind after i've already done it and then it takes forever to get the color out.

i'm listening to catch 22 and realizing how much i miss reel big fish! now thats a good fucking ska band if i've ever heard one.

why is everyones birthday in november also? QUIT CONCEIVING 9 MONS BEFORE NOVEMBER PEOPLE its getting rediculous.

I have this scent on me from earlier today that i really love, but i don't remember what the perfume was called or even where it was from.

i think i'm gonna go watch tv or study or something crazy cause i'm bored.

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7:53PM

www.myspace.com/north_compton

add it bitches

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7:44PM - helll yeaaa

I'm 19 years old and 4,000$ upside down.

for everyone younger than me take my advice and don't go to college.

haha jk

actually i'm not

12:39AM - just remember

Accept the things you can't change"

Current mood: tired

Current music: u2-one

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10:11PM - haha wow

i'm so weirded out that it's been a year since i graduated.

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1:53PM

I had the worst headache when I was sleeping. I haven't had headaches in awhile now cause I've found that caffeine works wonders. Anyways it was so bad it kept waking me up. How the hell can u actually get a headache when ur sleeping? damn myself.

Oh and I thought that maybe using a blonde hair dye would make my hair light brown since its black. Wrong-O. My roots are white. and the rest of my hair wasn't affected at all. So therefore, I have white roots and black hair. I look rediculous, haha. Now I have to bleach my hair which sucks.

My best friends baby is gonna be here anytime now! whoo hooo!

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4:34PM

"The longer I live, the more I realize the impact of attitude on life. Attitude, to me, is more important than facts. It is more important than the past, the education, the money, than circumstances, than failure, than successes, than what other people think or say or do. It is more important than appearance, giftedness or skill. It will make or break a company... a church... a home. The remarkable thing is we have a choice everyday regarding the attitude we will embrace for that day. We cannot change our past... we cannot change the fact that people will act in a certain way. We cannot change the inevitable. The only thing we can do is play on the one string we have, and that is our attitude. I am convinced that life is 10% what happens to me and 90% of how I react to it. And so it is with you... we are in charge of our Attitudes."

Charles R. Swindoll

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10:37PM - highlight of the day

sitting at stop light with a jack in the box milkshake

screaming the lyrics to hows it gonna be by third eye blind

realizing its probably the best song to sing your heart out to.

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1:00AM

Its april 19th

I was going to write how fast this year is going by but then I realized

haha that tomorrow is april 20th from looking at the screen.

I remember me and carrie being so excited about that last year!

Then her getting off work early or something and waking me up so we could smoke at EXACTLY 4:20.

However I was just informed that 420 is actually on wednsday pretty much meanings its not tomorrow its the day after. (but thats if you read this post right when I post it) I'm sure by the time half you guys read it, then it really will only be a day. ENOUGH ABOUT THAT......

Livejournal is funny, I bet at least 70% of my friends on here have had a lj for 3 year or more.

When the class of 2005 graduates, I don't know what I'm gonna do. I just read my entry on the last day of Highschool, and I don't like things changing.

So everybody still in highschool, enjoy the time you have even though I know you hate it and you can't wait to get out. This time next year you will be realizing how easy everything was back then.

Current mood: nostalgic

Current music: osker

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2:41PM - lovely washington mutual

So visa has been calling me off the hook.

I've been getting weird calls from banks, on my cell phone....

Then today this girl from washington mutual regrets to tell me I have not been approved for the loan i apparently tried getting 2 weeks ago.

hmmmm I haven't even tried getting out any loans, how much was the loan for i ask. "10,000$" the bitch says.

ok ok, so I lost my social security card and my lisense about a year ago.

so being a dumbass, i didn't even get a new social security number cause i was lazy.

now someone is saying they're megan farra, ahaha, FUCK!

Now i gotta do allll this shit to stop this person from stealing my identity.

whatever.

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9:47PM - you know what i hate........

That i really really realllllly wannnnnnnaa get high

Current mood: okay

Current music: deadbolt (its seriously been 2 years)

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1:38AM

It's not very late but normally at this time i'm waaay asleep.

The day has come....I ran out of sleeping pills. UGH

My wisdom teeth are raming in, no sleeping pills.

This is gonna be a looong night.

Current mood: aggravated

Current music: none

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4:04PM

I'm 19 tomorrow. ahhh! I don't wannt grow up!

I guess its not really that old but again it kinda is. haha I remember writing an entry last year about being 18, and thinking how old I was.

Me and Melissa celebrated my birthday last year, I don't really remember what we did though.

This was one of the fastest years ever.

So much has happened.

So much has changed.

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7:10AM

So todays gonna be another early day. I'm so tired and just want to crawl back in bed.

Court with carrie at like 8:30? What a fucking time to go to court. haha.

ummm, oh my god nm i'm too tired to write anything else. sorry.

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10:33PM

Everybody is so angry today. Man. Fights were happening everywhere it seems. Some people are just fucking ignorant.

My birthday is in 5 days! whoooo! I don't want to be 19, it seems like a stupid age, just cause I was so excited to be 18 and everything. Oh well 19 is just closer to 21 I guess!

I watched the Inferno 2 today, and its weird to watch since theres people on it that are on the real world, and real worlds season isn't even over until tomorrow, so whatever.

This entry is so dumb why am i even writing it.

I also dyed my hair black last night.

p.s I bought requim for a dream directors cut yesterday.

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9:25PM

I just got 50 cents new cd. The Massaccre, god I'm so fucking cool.

Current mood: bouncy

Current music: oh please u know

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7:29AM

So I'm starting my day at 7:30 AM. It's so weird cause theres times when I don't even fall asleep before 6:00 am.

Anyways I woke up to rushing out of bed fast and ending up half an hour later on the ground by my bed confused on how I got there. I forgot how getting up too fast makes me pass out every now and then. ughhhhhh.

I'm gonna go tanning today, and I can see why people get addicted and get orange, haha.

Current mood: weird

Current music: saosin

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6:13PM - weird

So I woke up and got out of bed really fast.
It made me soo dizzy, but I just figured it was cause I rushed outta bed.
But I can't believe how dizzy I still am! It's so freaking weird.
hmmm, whatvers clever.

Current mood: uncomfortable

Current music: silverstein

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